What I am Believing For 2019

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Have you ever found yourself scrolling through Instagram and after seeing so many remarkable lives you:

A. You end up looking at your life and feeling like you failed

B. You start wishing you were famous

C. You get green with envy and end up in stalker mode scrolling through their entire feed.

D. NONE of the above

E. All of the above

You guys are probably amazing people and all answer D. I, on the other hand, answered E. I think famous people are put on this earth to make us question our choices in life...Jk Jk. But they do make me question where I went wrong and why I haven't succeeded at anything yet. Sad I know.

God started to point out I was so busy looking at Instagram and believing that greatness comes from things of this world that I was missing the whole point. He then proceeded to slap me with a light bulb moment:

…whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first among you must be your slave; just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and give his life as a ransom for many.
— Matthew 20:27-28

Wow. Right? When he speaks, he speaks. What I finally understood was that greatness isn't in things we see on Instagram, but in serving others and putting others before ourselves. Easy right? No, wrong.

Let me start by confessing I’ve been praying to be a vessel of God’s love for the longest time. When I was little, it would break my heart to see children and old people begging in the street. It was frustrating to know there was nothing I could do to help and all I wanted was to make a difference. Then I started praying, “Lord, use me. Lord, I am ready.” It sounds nice, right? Asking God to be used to be a good person to others? Yes, it is until he answers your prayers. All of these opportunities got laid out in my path, and I froze. I have been scared to take a step forward or even talk about them to people. Why? Well, the fear of failing to be honest, but this isn't for me or about anything I can do in my own strength. I am not qualified for any of it, so why am I scared? If I asked to just be the vessel, then the pressure is not on me but on God.

I just want this to be a testimony of what God is capable of. I am letting things be out, not so you think “what a nice person” but so you see that I have nothing. I don’t have the resources, experience or the help I need, yet nothing is impossible to God. I am not speaking to you from a place of accomplishment, but you are a witness of the starting line. Here are my starting lines for 2019:

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Orphans (HIV Positive):

Last October God gave me the opportunity to meet some really awesome humans at Fundacion Amor Y Paz. This orphanage is a home to children and young adults that were born with HIV. The orphanage helps them get reintegrated into society even if they don't find a forever home. They have programs to encourage the children to finish school, attend college and also find a job so they can stand on their own.

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The struggle is that these children get picked on, people are afraid to be near them, and some people even discriminate against them because of their diagnosis. Some of the children have been surrendered by their own families or have been kicked out of their homes. Some of the young adults have a hard time finding a job because some jobs will ask if you're HIV positive. For the females, finding a job is even harder because some jobs in Honduras will make you get a blood test to test for pregnancy and HIV, before being hired. Regardless of how unfair the world has treated them for something they had no fault in, some of these children and young adults have some of the most contagious smiles.

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The little time I had to spend with them I saw some solid bonds between the children. I had the chance to play, chat and get to see the fantastic humans that keep this place running even under such minimal resources. The goal was to go find a place to help and figure out ways which we could help efficiently. God lined things up to where we ended up there. I stepped out, and he aligned my steps, so this year I am believing God to allow us to have an impact on the lives of this orphanage.

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Our first trip we brought a little care kit that we put together for each child (Shampoo, conditioner, floss, toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant, small toys... etc.). I had the chance to talk to the people in charge of the orphanage and they started to share some of the real needs and how we could help them better. Here are some of the ways I believe God will provide for us to help these children:

-School supplies for the children (pencils, book sacks, notebooks...etc.)

-Sponsor a child's education ($200 a semester)

-Fulfilling Christmas wishes (Each year they put an amazon wishlist together of all the wishes. Most of them are clothes.)

-Donations (spare clothes, shoes, computers, dress clothes for job interviews...etc.)

-Administrative supplies

-Kitchen supplies

-Food Donations

If you are interested in helping out, sponsoring, or just extending a helping hand, please reach out and let me know. I plan to make a trip out to Honduras about once a month.

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Healing Place Church - La Ceiba

This is very close to my heart because I have to say that Healing Place here in Baton Rouge, has been where I found my relationship with God. I had the amazing chance to visit their Honduras campus last year on one of my trips.

Side note: This was also where I had the chance to connect with the couple who gave us Premarital Counseling all the way from Honduras (Shoutout to Brandi and Gered Lambert!)

I also got to meet some of the local women that attend the church. I had the chance to hear about some of the struggles in the area. Job opportunity are scarce and even fewer chances for women to contribute to their homes. The church does a great job about teaching the ladies skills and having them display their projects in front of the congregation. The only problem is that the local need is great and it makes it hard for those projects or their skills to take them anywhere.

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I am praying for a breakthrough in this area. For now, we have laid out a couple of possible accessory projects. The materials and instructions were provided to see if they can be available for sell-through Elohim + Nim and local stores that would like to support these ladies. This would give them a product that they can make from home and earn an extra income without leaving home.

If anyone has any suggestions of projects or ideas for these ladies we are still trying to figure out a system and reliable product that works. Feel free to reach out, I'd love to hear some ideas.

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Job Opportunites In the City

Lastly, I am believing God to provide jobs in San Pedro Sula through our own clothing line. Meet Kenia. Kenia has a small clothing shop in her home, and she provides jobs for local women in San Pedro Sula. She has laid out her own timeline and pricing for production (Fairtrade). She will be working on our new Elohim + Nim clothing line. I am believing God to bring this dream to completion this year. (More on all these projects and all the backstories of all the people involved coming soon.)

These are some huge plans that I am believing God to come through on, but my God is greater than anything I can throw his way. The pressure is on him this year, and you and I are witnesses to the starting line. I'll be giving you guys updates on what God does in these areas and hope this serves as a testimony of what God is capable of.

With Hope + Excitement,

Nimia